Pipe Dreams!!!

I'm looking for a way out, it's dark with a foul stench. I can't keep my composure, My breath feels like it is stuck in my throat and i'm on the verge of suffocating. I stand still, put my head down and my hands upon them an eventually calm myself, thinking of all the good things in my life, be it something that I take for granted everyday or something that hardly happens to me, so I pack it in my memory banks for my lifetime. I Swallowed the cold hard lump of fear and worry in my throat and continued down the path, desperately searching for my way out of this nightmare! Trapped! Only one way out and praying to the heaven's above I find it.

I almost gave up on several occasions and just wanted to let my life waste away right where I stand. But my passion for life, The woman I love, my dreams and ambitions and knowing in my heart that I could not just let my feelings of desperation and fear to stop the train of success of mine and others future. It was not just about me, it was more than me. I wasn't on the path of success for just myself. I was shaken out of my thoughts by a small dim white light about 100 feet ahead of me. My heart started to beat faster and with new found zest for life. A small smile crept toward the corners of my parched lips and the sweat upon my brow intensified as my legs moved with vigor. The light got brighter and larger in size. Thoughts of what I would do to change the outcome of my life raced inside of my aching head and feelings of guilt for letting self pity trap me began to seap into my consciousness. But has the light got brighter and the hole expanded in size I exhaled those negative feelings and started to force positive thinking inside my dome instead. I was closing in on the bright light. My heart was racing, my brain was pounding with exhaustion, my breath was strangling me with every one I took. The hole is large now, a few more feet and freedom will be my friend. Still not sure how I got myself in this situation but I truly did not care. A few more feet. I was laughing maniacally now and tears where streaming down my face; rolling over the singed area where my former tears of depression past had made their marks. And Then, Success!

I made it. As my eye's adjusted to the light I could see that I was in a empty gigantic pipe, hundreds of feet in the air. Below me, a faint glimpse of water and vegetation. In front of me was about a thousand square miles of forest. How did I get here? I do not remember anything. Could I have been kidnapped. Did I come here on my own, hurt myself and gain amnesia. Not sure. You know what, it doesn't matter all that matters is getting home. The piped was set upon a huge mountain, which was very steep and surely looked unstable. I looked down at the water, it was a guarantee that if I was to jump or fall off the mountain, then I would meet death like a new neighbor next door. I started to sob. There was a slim chance I would survive heading down the mountain, but I was in much pain and knowing I would have to do some rock climbing maneuvers with no rock climbing experience frightened the hell out of me. I could just give up and fall to my death, or sit here and hope i'm rescued. I sat for a while and weighed my options, jump to my doom and say forget it all or despite the agonizing pain, no food or water, the heat and no idea what i'm doing, make my way, down the mountain. I thought about my wife and the hurt she'd feel if she knew I gave up. I thought about my passion for acting which was not really exploding at the time and I thought about my life and what I want to be remembered for. A coward or a man that continued on through all adversity and struggle. My decision was made. I would not give up, I would soldier on. Every moment was a brand new chance for redemption and success and I wanted to fulfill my vows to myself of following through to the end no matter the consequence.

I painfully got to my feet and start down the mountain. I was in charge, I owned this situation, I was gonna be victorious. Then it happened! I came to a cliff and knew I would have to climb down in order to continue. I was still about 3 or 400 feet in the air and was scared shitless. But I made my decision and was gonna live or die by it. I got to my knees and turned over on my stomach and started inching my way over the cliff. As I hung in thin air and wondering if I made the right decision, the words "keep going" popped in my head. Over and over the words slammed my cerebrum, and was getting louder in volume. I started grabbing for crevices and out put rocks. I was doing it, I was doing it!! I traveled down the face of the beast slowly but with conviction and confidence. I started feeling like I made it, I seen my wife Erin and thought about embracing her again and never letting go. I saw myself going to auditions and bringing my all and getting the parts. I saw myself promoting my films and standing on the red carpet as cameras flashed and fans screamed for my attention.

I was so enthralled in how my life would change for the better I didn't notice how I just completely missed a piece of cliff, and let my foot slip. I tried to grab out to the face of this behemoth for security but it was to late. How stupid I am. I slowly fell backwards and headed down the path of fate. I had a way's to fall but not long enough to go through all the emotions expected for an oncoming tragic situation. I tried and failed. But you know what, I didn't care. I smiled as I fell to my doom, I was no longer afraid. I did what most would not have done, and kept going through all adversity. I felt death on the back of my neck and spun my body around to see my impending fatality. I closed my eye's and let the nice breeze of a hot day in the middle of a forest hit my face with pleasure. The water rushed up from the forest floor with intensity and in my last 10 seconds I gave out a loud yell of maniacal Freedom. I slammed into the water with enough force to level a house. Darkness fell.

A sound. Man made. My eyes strained to open but blinding light shut them closed again. I was alive! The sound was so close I could reach out and touch where it was coming from. I outstretched my hand and pushed the off button on my alarm clock. What a dream, what a damn dream. It felt so real, I was there, but obviously I truly wasn't. I sat up in my bed and wiped the cold out of my eye. I looked over at my beautiful wife and kissed her gently on the forehead, I was so lucky to have her, she was the best thing that ever has and will happen to me no matter how much success I have, it would be nothing without her. I pulled back the covers. She slowly turned over and opened her eye's. "Morning baby," she let out with a groggy yawn. "Good morning lovely," I soothingly replied. The images of my dramatic dream still flashed and burned in my head. "Today is the big day, you still afraid and nervous babe?" My wife asked as she sat up and reach for my face to softly caress it. I look her in her eye's and before I spoke, thought about the dream again and everything I have learned from it. Today was a big day, It was my second call back for a co-lead role in my first major motion picture. If I did well today I would get the part and start down a new path in my film career. I gently pushed her hair out of her eye and said, "Nope, I feel great. Today is my day." She looked at me quizzically and smiled accentuating Those cute dimples. "You got this baby," she foretold. I let my mind wonder once more to the dream and then let it seap into the back of my mind, forever to be a mentor for anything I do in life from now on. I smiled at her and said, "I know babe, Your right I do."

Till next time folks, do you, enjoy yourself.